Getting up early is the worst. And unfortunately, I have to do it three times a week for my internship. I know it’s worth it. Obviously. Definitely. Absolutely. But it sucks. All I can manage to do at 5:30 a.m. is be angry.
As well as being the first day of my internship, it is also the first day of the Spring semester. I kicked it off by being 12 minutes late to my first class.Did I really expect anything more from myself? I have one year left, and it’s getting truly tough to muster up any sort of excitement for school. I know this semester will pass just as quickly as any other, but I can never grasp that fact until it’s already over. Time is passing so quickly, yet all I ever want is for it to pass quicker. I wish I could shake myself and learn to enjoy my time here, but the sad truth is that I haven’t enjoyed myself since May of 2012. My first year was fantastic. I was free. But as time passes and classes get harder and the workload grows, everything is a chore.
I know this semester is going to be incredibly difficult with two jobs and a full class schedule, but I really don’t want to end it feeling exhausted. And I don’t want to feel resentment toward it either. I know it all depends on me, regardless of outside factors. If I can get a grip on myself, it won’t matter how busy I am. I need to stop thinking that free time is the goal.
I’m already sick of this post. I’m only writing it because I have a three-hour break between classes today.
I’m going to hash out a few reasonable goals for myself here.
1. Start and finish at least one new book this semester.
2. Eat more greens.
3. Restart yoga a few times a week.
4. Don’t spend ANY money on clothes unless it will make a good staple internship piece.
5. Wear retainer every night.
6. Blog at least once a week, whether it be here or on your other wordpress.